Embellished being

This heart seems as callous as a guitarist's fingertips, 
slowly hardening with time.
Time that passes like honey in an hourglass.
This soul is like a hollow diamond casing, 
imprisoning the building tears and emotions 
that would suggest I posses a functioning heart.
My eyes are as depthless as a mirror, 
as dull as charcoal and as near sighted as a devious promise.
Unable to see what I will to ignore, 
I see the world through slitted eyes, 
nearly convincing myself that fear and shame do not exist...
Forgetting the scars that decorate my psyche.

Surprise of Secrecy

I stare out  the window, pressing  my hand to the glass. Even painted with frost,

it`s not  as  cold  as  his  eyes. I think of   all the times he said he loved me, and 

wonder  how   he  could hide all  those  lies. I can't stop  the  tears  from falling, 

even   though   I know  he's  not  worth  it this  pain will  not end. Sinking  to the

floor, I   desperately  wish a   broken  heart  wouldn' take  so  long   to  mend.

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                      How  can  you 
            be beautiful,               If you
       have an   ugly                      heart?
     Can              you                       ever  
   find                 closure,                  If you                  
  don't                   know                   where 
 to start?                Will                you ever 
    find love,            If you're        afraid of 
       a broken            heart? Is it possible
            to loose yourself,Without first 
                        falling apart?  

Early departures and lonely goodbyes

Everything is forgotten up to
some point, though red tinged                              memories 


stay fresh much longer. Regardless
of my best efforts, this cutting pain                     will


not ease. Without you here to hold
me close, I fear I may fall to pieces. I'm             not


too sure where you are now, but I need 
you to know that my love for you will never      fade.